Another State Of Mind #3

Assalamualaikum Wr.Wb

“We don’t meet people by accident. They are meant to cross our path for a reason.”

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Just as soon as those feelings were gone, I was glad and relief. I could really put my head upon the pillow with a great new and fresh start. We both knew that we were just friends. Nothing more nothing less. I took a great regret seeing him felt in burden. I was such a bad girl.

Well. Thank you so much, sir. I really had a great time. You took me a lot of life lessons.

Okay. An ending is just another of a new beginning. I said that to myself as I cross tight my hands around the chest and kept thinking what the worse that could happen next.. Blood type B is an optimistic person, but I have cherophobia. Once I felt so happy, I knew I shouldn't. That is just not amazing skill people should owned. So, I want to clear out something. I have completely moved on. Wahaha..

A journey to another hi will soon be started. Let’s just see..

I am the "easily falling" type. This had gotten me into lots of problem. I just want to run along the shore and shout as loud as I could until my throat bleed. I just want to drink all of the water and spit it like a dumb. Sleep on the white sand as I look upon the beautiful ocean sky, listen to the breeze while closing my eyes, playing with a turtle like a kid, and singing along with a bird. Oh yeah, I like silent places. It makes my heart peace. 

That day was not a good day since I wore a baggy and my classes has an audition for ADKR 2014. Because of it, I couldn’t gather for the SYC meeting. Just after the audition, I ran down to get an information the SYC had been telling. The first time our eyes met to each other started. Hahaha.. Sounds vacant.. -,- And up until now, I can’t believe I was so much  closer to him than I imagined I was.. Stupid~ 

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Another State Of Mind #2

Assalamualaikum Wr.Wb.

“Am I loving the wrong guy?” –Hyms

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I am not a professional. I am not the Master of Love. When it comes to love, I can just put my hands up and start singing 2 PM’s. Do all of you do exactly like I do? No? Okay. Okay. What? Damn!

Just because I haven’t been in a relationship with guy, doesn’t mean I am lame. But, I am lame. Little lame! Please pay attention, I don’t love girls. It’s just the matter of time. Perhaps my future husband hasn’t born yet. I am just making some hypothesis..

Honestly, I can’t be in a relationship. I don’t like boundaries. I am not the type of girl who loves being attached by only one guy. But, that doesn’t mean I am playgirl. Back to number one, it’s just the matter of time. Look, guys. I am loyal. I can gurantee that. Here are my money, take it, I don’t mind.

Before, I said that, “I am still fall for you.” That could be right. I just haven’t met thousand ways to get moved on from him. Wahaha. (to me,) We have too many memories via Katalk. I can’t let him go yet. To me who built the memories by myself, can be really hard to wipe them out alone. Some drive me crazy. Some will make my tears shown up. But I realize that he’s just not the one. He wasn’t born for me. He was born for his parents. Can you not?

He used to make me freeze whenever our eyes met to each other. He used to make my ankle sprained whenever I thought about him. He used to make me laugh by myself. He used to make me excrete wet-cold sweat around my palms. He used to make me confused by his mind-puzzling. He used to make me feel like I was being paid a full attention just by him. He used to make me think that I was the most beautiful person he has ever met. He used to drive me crazy. And now, he will not make any of them for more.

I am in A side while he is in the B side. We can just be connected by a thread or brick bridge, but we don’t want to be connected. He doesn’t want to be connected. This is so confusing. I don’t get him somehow.

Now I feel free. I feel like I can shout out loud and no one can even hear me shout. They will not able to hear me curse anyone. Wahaha..

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