State of Mind #2

Assalamu’alaikum Wr.Wb

 

“I made things up and I was the only one living in it till’ the end.” –Hyms

Two days hiatus drove me crazy. I kept thinking of what the first sentence –or might be the first word– to say to each other. Those two days were telling me how should I stare perfectly, greet properly, and act normally. Though a good things will overrule the bad, I didn’t believe it in a second if it’s about myself to him. I was nervous as I had wet-cold sweat on my forehead and both of my palms. I warned my ankle not to be sprained or placed wrongly as it could make my leg shaking for five times per second on our first met, two days after graduation.

June, 18th.

My house was brighter and warmer since my grandma was there to take a short holiday with us, her grandchild. That awkward moment when I realized I didn’t have to go to school on time because I am graduated, but still mumbled at my father for taking me to school at 7.15 am.

I thought I had prepared everything well. But in fact, I forgot every details of the plan I already arranged before. That morning, I finally arrived at school obviously not at 7.15 am. I was afraid that I would be late for the ‘Kongres’. But, I guessed better late than never. I ran after to the basecamp and found my Scemathics Family sitting on bench comfortably and peacefully. And they didn’t do anything despite from breathing and moving their hearts and minds. I was like, “You don’t say...” So I ran for nothing? Don’t say that! #”You were exactly running for him. You couldn’t hold it to see those dazzling eyes.”#

We didn’t talk too much in the first 45 minutes. But then, Rani came and saved my life. Saved me from ‘life reduction by ten years due to a nervousness’. She warmed up things. And we could finally and slowly open up to others. I was glad she was there. 

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